Why is it that great people think i'm greater than them? Did i somehow gain their respect? or was wat i did so amazing? or is it just some psych thing they do?
Im sick and tired of people sayin 'oh you're so smart' or 'you sure get straight a's' because when i work for it and fail... it makes me crash and when they ask, they'd be like 'huh really? i thought you would .....' or 'I expected .......' And then, the worse part is when they do better than me.
I guess in the end, its all about living up to people's expectations. Not just anybodies expectations, but the 'great' ones. On a normal occasion, I would be happy with my results. I mean Phy was real good. and i got 597/600 for math. Great i'd say. But then someone comes along and says 'Wow I'm quite shocked. I thought you'd get full score.' and it just kills me. Why can't they sincerely say something like 'thats great.. congrats'. Its true what they say about if u set real high expectations, when u don reach it, u crash... even if the expectations weren't set by you. I noe wat i got was good. I'm satisfied. But a part of me just can't help be frustrated bout not besting the greats.
I don't know it started but now, whenever someone says somethin along th eline of '..... you're so smart' i cant help but be pissed inside my heart because most of them noe full well they're better. I can probably conclude its al those people that do better than me, then say that that piss me off the most. I know they mean well, but i cant help but feel sad. Its quite a confusing feeling and i dont noe if i worded it out right. But again, spilling it seems to make me feel better.
BTW if you're the type dat feels bothered to say somethin about this post... don't.
